I’ve barely left my house in nearly a week. Last Wednesday I had ACL reconstruction surgery and my life has revolved around that since. Going to the bathroom quickly became a half hour excursion where for a little while I would be out of the terrible CPM (continuous passive motion) machine and able to “walk around.” As a fifteen year old girl who had a lot going on in her life, it has been quite the change.
And I haven’t been quick to accept it. No, unfortunately I filled the first few days with complaints. There was always something to complain about: how much my knee hurt, how sick the pain medications made me feel, how much I wanted to get up and walk and play my piano. And I felt like I deserved to be able to complain about whatever I wanted. I didn’t (and to some extent, still don’t) understand what purpose God could possibly have in such a situation. Because I tore my ACL, I had to cancel two trips to see my sisters (I was going to be flying by myself for the first time and getting sister on sister time) as well as drop out of doing my theatre group’s production of West Side Story. It ruined my life- at least that’s what my teenage drama-filled brain thought.
Slowly and surely, God revealed his timing to me and taught me to have patience in life. It was a lesson well learned. I had two options: sitting on the floor crying and being miserable, or being still somewhat miserable, but accepting the situation and looking for God’s purpose.
I don’t really understand all the reasons why God had me tear my ACL, I’d still say that so far it’s been the worst experience of my life and I would change my decision to go to that trampoline place in an instant. But I do know that He has been able to teach me and grow me through the experience. I’ve learned to deal with pain. I’ve learned to keep going even when I can’t take another step on those stupid crutches. I’ve learned to appreciate small victories, like putting my knee brace on without help or being able to go without a pain pill. And most importantly, I’ve learned the importance of having patience, and slowing down to catch up with God and wait for His perfect timing.
I want to encourage anyone who is going through a frustrating situation- where it seems like everything fell down at just the wrong time. God is still there through it all, and He’s going to bring about things that couldn’t have come any other way. Hang in there!
“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” -Psalm 27:14
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6