Unapproachable

I often find myself becoming attached to people I know nothing about. Most of the time this happens at theatre- I see somebody, most likely a lead, and I think, ‘hey, that person’s pretty cool. I want to get to know them.’ So what usually ends up happening is that I start thinking about what it would be like to be this person’s friend, and in the process I end up becoming a little bit terrified of them. I have an unfortunate addiction to people who are seemingly just out of reach.

This ‘out of reach’ quality could be contrived by my brain for any of number of reasons- the person is way more talented than me, they have a larger friend group, or maybe they happen to be a really cute guy (in which case the out of reach quality is multiplied by about 10,000). Anyways, my point is that I always find some reason why this person wouldn’t want to be my friend, and thus I shy away from pursuing a friendship. They’re unapproachable. Or so it seems.  Continue reading

Appreciation

No, I actually haven’t completely disappeared off the face of the planet. Just temporarily. Hopefully I’m back to a more regular schedule now. In the past four months I’ve been on six trips, two of them to Europe, and I haven’t been at my house with my laptop very much. Also, finals. Anyways, the last trip I went on was to New York, where my parents and I stayed in a really tiny flat in Brooklyn. And I learned something in the two nights that we stayed there. Appreciation.  Continue reading